Running on Empty

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The above picture was taken last spring at my parent’s farm in West Texas.  We will be packing up the family and headed that way for Easter weekend on Friday (dogs and all!).  Not only will it be interesting to see how we manage the 4 hour trip, but it is Jude’s first trip.  I am excited and slightly (tremendously) anxious already.

Spring is definitely here and I have been itching to get my hands in the dirt.  It was almost 90 degrees today, and I couldn’t resist throwing on the flip flops and sun dress and getting outside while the wee one napped.  I managed  to plant a few herb seeds before he woke.

My mind is totally focused on spring.  I have tons of overwhelming ideas just bursting to get out.  I am feeling good physically, and got the OK from the doc to resume all my normal activities.  April will be full of change and growth  but am too tired to go into much detail.  I have many projects and goals running around in my head but more on that later.  For now, I must see if I can get this baby to sleep more than an hour at a time…..and by hour I mean 1o minute increments.

For the Birds?

Desperately trying to get back into the swing of things but feel creatively drained.  As a matter of fact, I just feel drained PERIOD!  I wonder why?

Hmmm…ok, on second thought….

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Having a new baby in the household has definitely turned our world upside down.  Night and day has become blurry.  I can’t remember a time when I dreaded the night time so much.  Oh yeah, it was when my oldest was a newborn.

Mind, I’ve never really been one who needed a lot of sleep.  (I was the queen of all-nighters back in my spry college days.)  That is until sleep isn’t an available option.  Then I crave it desperately!  Unfortunately, this little guy seems to need less sleep that us at the moment.  I would love to down a pot of coffee right now, but I know that I would be sharing the  “stay awake juice” with the nursing one as well.  Now, I don’t want to give the impression that our lives are not glorious and fulfilling …oh we are definitely fulfilled…..just doing it very sleep deprived!

That being said, I am not sure how to fit all of this into my creative life.  The sheer volume of the new daily responsibilities take up most of my time and tend to thwart my moments of inspiration with a wailing need to have a diaper changed.  I’m not even going to tell you how long it has taken me to write this blog post.  The good news is, so far I have managed to keep us from living in a total disaster area, and have managed to crank out two new paintings.

The problem is, I’m not sure where I am going with these paintings.  I suppose I want to try something new.  I’ve also never been good at figures and faces,  and all of a sudden I have decided to give that a shot.  Not sure if I am headed in the right direction, but at least it is a forward motion.  Snail pace be damned.

Another Lady With Birds

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I really want to incorporate some expression and life into my paintings, but haven’t really drawn figures since art school [# redacted] years ago.  Hopefully, I will get better at these bird ladies, but for now I am following a whim and see where it takes me.   We shall see.

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What I like:  I love the texture,  I like ONE of the eyes, i like the color and mood of the painting.  I love how the ink blends and blotches. I like the dots.

What I don’t like:  I don’t like the flatness of the birds or the face.  The composition is boring and the proportions need ALOT of work.

Who are you today Dear?

Caterpillar: Who are YOU?

Alice: This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. I — I hardly know, sir, just at present — at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.

The Duchess: I quite agree with you. And the moral of that is: Be what you would seem to be, or if you’d like it put more simply: Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise.

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Oh how I know what you mean Alice!  We spend so much of life trying to figure out who we are, only to change who we were in the process.  I’ve decided to stop looking for myself and let myself start looking for me awhile.  I’ll probably get lost along the way so I’ll leave a trail of crumbs along the way.

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So the real question is….Am I a tulip or a daisy?!

Artist Interupted

The Halter of Productivity

The Stealer of Sleep

The Diaper Loader of Doom

The Bringer of Chaos

The Schnuggler

MilkFace

He goes by many names, but we like to call him

Jude Micheul

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Our sweet Jude was born February 19th to the tune of Hey Jude, and our lives have been total chaos and unproductive bliss ever since.  We wouldn’t have it any other way and, despite the lack of sleep and overflowing Diaper Gene, are surviving just fine.

We all like the little guy so very much and have decided to keep him…..well, with the exception of one family member.

photo(2)Mags is not quite sure why he is not the baby anymore; therefore, the jury is still out.

Come on Mags!!!! Even this guy is smitten!  Big brothers are always right.

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So where are we?

Well, it has been three weeks since our new addition and life is slowly returning to normal.  I still  can’t move stuff, carry heavy objects or bend over the way I would like to.  I tire easily and feel like a dairy cow, but life is good and the cup of life is full.  I think back to a time where life was not so brimming with happiness and feel such immense gratitude in the power above and within that has brought me to this place.  We have moved so far within such a short span of time, who knows how far we can go with even shorter time.  All I know is that I plan to pursue life and my dreams with all I have and then some.  I may have to steal some energy along the way because right now I’m running a little low on the go go juice.

In wanting to share all the new experiences and growth with you, I have revamped my old Blogger Blog.  It will be there that I blog about my experiences with motherhood and life in our camp.  This way Wenderflona can remain my professional site that has to do with all things art.

In the mean time, maternity leave is officially over and Back to work I go.  I have new inspiration and ideas are brewing.  I just hope MilkFace gives me a few minutes to paint every now and then.

All Systems are go for Baby!

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I can’t believe that we have less than a week and BFS and I will be holding our sweet baby in our arms.  Because of previous complications with Parker’s birth, I am having a planned C-section next Friday.  I’ll admit it is a little disappointing that I wasn’t a candidate for VBAC, but as long as the baby is healthy it will not matter one bit.  So far everything has been blessedly smooth and uncomplicated.   However, I can tell it is getting to be that time because I am simply miserable.  I feel huge, can’t sleep, can’t eat normally, can’t get comfortable, can’t fit into any of my clothes and can definitely tell it will be a very long week.   There have also been signs such as false labor and braxton hicks contractions.  BFS even got to download a cool stopwatch app on his phone today in order to time a few suspicious contractions.  I had about 6 or so painful ones about 20 to 25 minutes apart earlier that put us in a state of red alert.  No emergency trip to the hospital resulted, so in reality it was more like code mild orange.  I just took a short nap and all was fine.  It did however, light the fire under me to finally put the last pieces of preparation into play.

We worked on getting the house ready, and I picked up the last of my essential items to pack (like gynormous unmentionables and other things best not discussed).   The baby bag is ready to go, but I can’t exactly finish packing my own hospital bag since I am down to wearing only a couple of outfits that are still comfy.  I refused to buy any maternity clothes this time around since they tend to be, in my opinion, ugly and overpriced.  I just stick to the stretchy and larger end of  my wardrobe and do just fine.  However, it means that I will probably be doing laundry Thursday night before we go to the hospital.

We also finished the nursery this weekend (well minus the completion of one last painting, but BFS will finish up this week).  Most everything was ready thanks to the wonderful baby showers, the generosity of amazing friends and family, and the purchase of a few key furniture items.  I was mainly searching for one last thing to tie in all my mismatched elements and colors.  I wanted an orange rug.  I searched the internet and a few stores and couldn’t find what I wanted.  My last endeavor was IKEA.  I was sure they would have what I wanted.  They absolutely did, but surprisingly it was not in the shade of orange I had been envisioning.   Instead, it was a brilliant and soothing green.  There was some skepticism at first, but something told me I would like it.  Here are a few shots of Baby Jude’s finished Nursery.  It feels very calm and peaceful to me.  Let me know what you think.

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I decorated these letters myself with a little glue, ink , ribbon and scrapbook paper.  I am really stoked at how cool they turned out.  Since these items are pretty much what I use to create my mixed media paintings, I only had to buy the wooden letters at Hobby Lobby.

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Loved this crib bedding the second I saw it  in  a shop one day browsing.  It is by Cotton Tale Designs.   We wanted the theme to be elephants with a little Indian meets modern hippie flair thrown in.  In other words, eclectic elephants.  I just loved the colors and design of the elephants AND the red palm trees.   BTW! BFS’s mom hand knitted the adorable elephant seen in the top left! And my good friend Jen made the blanket hanging over the side. LOVE IT! LOVE the fact that there are so many handmade with love items all about this room.

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So many fun things to go into the baby room.  I love this sling that ties conveniently to the side to hold baby Jude’s favorite squishy toys.

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Oooh a peak at the green carpet. Whatchew think?  I just think it adds peacefulness to an already colorful room.  You can see the baby bag is already hanging on the door ready to go.  I am really excited that my favorite Aunt Lori got me the ultra cool Moses basket seen in the corner.  I can’t wait to use it.  Eventually, we will put the rocker in this corner of  the room.  For now it is in our bedroom, along with the portacrib, for those frequent all night feedings I’m not wanting to walk across the house for.

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I LOVE this carved elephant rack of convenient hooks.  I am sure in the times to come these hooks will be filled with coats, jackets, bags and such.  For now, they offer a home to a beautiful plaque given to us by a beautiful friend, and the cutest and tiniest of baby shirts that belonged to BFS.  I just love that we decorated the room with a few of father-to-be’s mementos from his own babyness.  It makes it all the more special.

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Rather than purchasing a changing table, we went with a small dresser instead.  Just placed a changing mat , wipe warmer, and a lamp on top and…Voila! we have a transformable dresser/changing table that does not look like a poorly constructed hotel drink cart with a mat on top.  It is a piece of furniture that can be used for a long time to come.  We also made sure that the crib converted to eventually a full sized bed as well.  Baby J will be stuck with his furniture for a LONG time to come.

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AWWW check out the paintings on the wall! My favorite part of the nursery by far.  BFS still needs to finish the second painting but they make me feel all warm and gooey every time I look at them.  I can see the talent and love he put in every brush stroke.  This is gonna be one lucky kid for sure!

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These are a few of the elephants that have a special home in the nursery.  My favorite is the black Indian elephant given to us by one of my favorite cousins and his fiance.  They get me MAN!!!

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A baby nursery is not complete without a shelf of doodads and whatsits.  In this case, we needed a shelf to hold slinkey dog, drums, books, videos, blocks, BFS’s first teddy bear (awe!) and baskets of goodies.  My SIL also gave me the cool big block chest that I have yet to decorate.

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See! Doodads and whatsits.

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Well folks? whatddya think?  I think all we are missing is the baby.

I had so much fun decorating this room and getting ready for Jude’s arrival.  I consider myself blessed that I have the opportunity to make a loving space for our new family member.

Happy Valentines Day

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Happy Valentines Day everyone. I hope for a day filled with love and peace sprinkled with chocolate…and lots of it.

I plan on spending a warm, relaxing day with my wonderful family and dream of this time next week when I am holding my sweet new baby boy in my arms.

It is a new year, a new decade and so many things are going on.  I really didn’t bother with making resolutions this year.  It is definitely hard keeping up with all the new things falling into place, but everything is falling so well.  I didn’t want to muck it up with a lot of empty promises made to myself.  I will worry about getting into shape at the end of the year after I recover from the birth (always my standard resolution),  and I will continue to concentrate on building a business out of my art.  Slowly, but surely, I am winning this race.  Now, if I could just manage to post more and still get the dishes and laundry done.  I blame it totally on nesting.  Jude is due February 19th, and for weeks now I have been obsessed with cleaning baseboards and closets.  I have been wiped out and tired.  I’m painting, but not as much as I like and am finding getting into a set schedule very difficult.  I only anticipate it getting more hectic. That’s OK though, it is so exciting how much our lives are going to change this year, so I say bring it on.

Things that have been happening of late:

~Playing with ink.  I love it!  It adds a texture and dimension to my art that makes me sing.  I really love Tim Holtz’s line of alcohol based ink.

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I love the texture and depth it adds to my pieces.  Trying to develop a consistent style is difficult when I have all these fun materials to play with.

~I’m also trying out a new venue for selling my art at etsy.com.  If you click the shop link on the home page it will take you to my store. or follow this link  http://www.etsy.com/shop/wenderflonia.

~BFS and I have been super busy gettign ready for or little Aquarian arrival.  It is less than 4 weeks now (Not panicking AT ALL!!!!).  We have been aranging and rearanging and preping and cleaning and painting.

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Isn’t this fabulous!?  Super talented BFS painted this for our sweet baby boy. It will hang in the nursery……. err That is, once we get around to actually get the nursery decorated and set up.   Hopefully, I will be able to post a companion piece soon with an elephant and sun soon.

As hectic as things will be in the next few months, I hope to stay on track and post more.  Fingers crossed. Now I think I will take my turtle self to bed and see if I can get a few hours of sleep in.

Tis the Season

It has been a super busy month and I have sadly fallen behind on my posting. My goal to be more productive, it seems, didn’t include blogging. Instead, I have been filling my days with many creative processes and Christmas preparations. Oh,and don’t forget about busy keeping the bun in the oven safe and all the ups and downs that go with that. As of Christmas day, I will be 32 weeks pregnant. Time is flying by! We have so much to get done before D-Day, February 25th.

Along with the bun in the oven, I have many other things brewing that I am so excited to get to work on. This is the year (dare I announce it!?) that I actually make a career out of my love for Painting and creating! What was once considered a hobby and passion, is being upgraded to a full on J.O.B. I don’t expect miracles overnight, but I am giving it my all and following a dream I have had since I was a child. The plan is to start slow (given that I am giving birth in a few months, that won’t be a problem). There are a few other steps to the plan but there will be much more to come after the new year. Things are just popping into place and I love it.

In the mean time, from my family to yours, Happy Holidays!

Blaaaa

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It has been so hard getting into the groove lately.  I am looking for inspiration and keep hitting a wall.  I know that with this sweet child kicking around in my belly I should be seeing sunshine and daisies where ever I look.  However, I’m just seeing meanness and dark skies.  There has been so much unilateral thinking staining my path lately, and find I must seek comfort and wisdom in what is greater than I.

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other. ~Mother Teresa