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Still Dreaming

Random thoughts from Wenderflonia

There isn’t much time in the day to do much else.  We are getting there slowly but surely, and although it feels like time stands still, we are marching forward.  I believe that is loads better than waiting.

 

I am at a point where I am just enjoying the time watching my littlest grow and trying to keep up with the teenager.  Life in our house is moving faster than I can keep up and I don’t want to miss it.

 

A new realization hit me.  We are undeniably aging.  I am getting into a habit of listing all my aches and pains….. Who does that?  OLD PEOPLE!  ohhhh no……

 

I have learned this month that patience is not one of my virtues and the older we get the more complicated things become.  For no reason!

 

It always baffled me that people tend to describe me as a laid back and easy going person.  How is this possible?  I am 90% of the time wound up, anxious, obsessive and very much not in a relaxed state.  I can best be described as randomly neurotic.

 

My kids are adorable!

 

Randomly and neurotically yours,

Wenders

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Too busy to stop….

We sure have been awfully busy lately, Not sure with what exactly but I know I’ve been doing something.  I have to be doing something to be this exhausted.  Actually, I haven’t been feeling well at all and am constantly achey.  I am afraid I might be experiencing early onset of arthritis and am totally frustrated with the effect it has on my desire to get back in shape or even to get out of bed some mornings.   Ah well, gotta keep on keepin’ on.   I just hope all my friends and family remain patient with me and my bemoaning.  My motivation is really low right now.  Hopefully, there will be tons of fun and exciting news coming up (potentially a new studio space, maybe ((please God)) a vacation and a new business venture… bla bla bla:-))

 

Snap crackle and popping

Wenders

 

 

 

 

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A not positive or helpful stream of conscious post

 

This blog post is not going to be very useful or helpful or enlightening or positive or even coherent.  In fact, it will probably mostly definitely be just flat out whiny, poorly constructed sentences.  I don’t care, I am tired, I am hot and my hips and back hurt really bad.  I am supposed to be doing all these inspiring and great things, but instead I wait until someone needs something from me and this morning I chose ramen noodles for breakfast.  I feel drained of style and spark that is so determinedly me.  Nothing fits in my closet.  That is my own fault (see above for breakfast choice). This summer has been too hot, and I have been too needed to even remember when I bathed last.   I don’t feel like making myself look pretty.

I have always been the type of person who put others way before myself, I am good at it.  I have kids and I am a stay at home gal while my man works his ass off to provide a very lovely lifestyle, it is my job.  Don’t misunderstand, I love being the lady who runs the house.  I don’t mind at all.  I love it in fact.  Have I mentioned that I am very good at my job?…mostly …except when I go on a cleaning and cooking strike.  It is just that I’ve noticed it is mostly those who put 100% into their job who need a vacation the most or they burn out.  This summer I hit burn out.  Maybe too much mind numbing heat and not enough (any) real time for JUST me and I = zombie.  I need a break quite honestly.  I need a break so I can work my ass off in peace.   I want to work hard on something and not pay a consequence on it… Like when I over did it in the garden the other day because I knew I only had so much time to get it done.  My poor out of shape body still hurts.  I don’t want a vacation.  I wan’t time to do more,  I want motivation to do more,  I want my body to cooperate and not hurt when I do more.  Mostly, I want the heat to go away and for it to rain.

 

Thank you for listening to my whiny rant.  At least I had the time to get this done before superJude woke.  it is very important that we have schnuggle and cartoon watching time in the morning.

 

dedicatedly yours,

Wenders

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A trip back home

I prayed for twenty years but received no answer until I prayed with my legs.  ~Frederick Douglass, escaped slave

Visited back home the other day and this sign caught my eye.  I used to drive by this sign every day.  As I drive by  and stopped to take a picture I had a realization.  I see the deterioration this sign has gone through over the years, the church has long gone and deteriorated as many country churches do.  It made me sad yet I realized that if we don’t maintain these places ourself then they will fall apart, that He wants us to actually do the hard work.

Peace and Love,

Wenders

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Procrastination and avoidance I wage war on thee

 

Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task.

                             ~William James







So many things to do and keep track of.  I have got to get a better system of some kind.  I really wish I was secretly one of those super organized people I have such a hard time getting along with but alas I am exactly the opposite.  Mad geniuses are usually bad spellerers and chronically disorganized, right?   (Of course Wendy!  You are fabulourus in your spellering and disorgizations)


 


sigh…..


 


So, what is the key to stop avoiding all the things I avoid?  Why do I keep putting off the things I put off?  These are precisely the things I plan to soul search in depth tomorrow.


 


Yours with lack of willpower,


Wenders


 


 

	


	





		

		
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It has been a while since I had to write the “I hang my head in shame for being such a bad blogger” post.  Jeez, has it really been since Easter!?  I suppose It has.  So here I sit, hanging head in shame, admitting I am a bad blogger.  Here is my defense in bullet formation.


    

  • It has been one crazy busy summer.  We have gallivanted all over the state doing tons of fun and exciting things.  Ok, ok fun things I could have easily blogged about and posted amazing pictures… fine.
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  • It has been horrifically hot.  I think it might be breaking a serious law or commandment for even saying this but, I HATE TEXAS!  I am sooo sick of 110 degree ovenlike heat.  We actually were the lucky ones here in North Texas and got most of the rain in the early part of the summer, but now it is ridiculously hot and it does things to my motivation…bad things!
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  • The tiny one turns me into a pile of brain numbing mush by the end of the day.  Most days I refuse to get out of bed until the 16 month-old forces me to (or I smell coffee).  Then it is go, go, go entertainment all day.  At the end of the day when there is finally a moment for myself, I am barely fit for human conversation.  Love that little guy but he is wearing me out these days.  I was due for a break of some kind so I took it out on my blog.
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And the most important reason why I have been a bad  blogger  is….


    

  • I am, is, are, was, were lazy.  That is all. Nuff said.
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There you have it.  I will vow to be a better blogger.


So what have we been doing?


Parker graduated the Eight Grade and will be in High School!




We also went to the zoo a few times, took a family vacation to South Padre Island, had a great 4th of July with family, I went on a road trip with my mom and aunts, went to Scarborough Fair….and much much more.  here are a few more images of the summer so far.






















And that my friends is our summer very briefly in pictures…. well some of it anyway.  There have been plenty of other stuff like diapers, fits, dirty dishes, backyard mayhem, work, and work avoidance etc.  I will be more vigilant in updating regularly again.  Especially because there are many exciting things happening in the studio!  I will save that for the next post, but until then check this out: www.shabbyhippie.com.


Glad to be back!


Wenders

	


	







		

		
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Spring Spring
	


	
	

		


 




April prepares her green traffic light and the world thinks Go.  ~Christopher Morley, John Mistletoe




This is one of the few times during the year that I love living in Texas.  Despite the wind, Spring is fabulous here and I am in love with all the green finally emerging.  This is a great time for Jude as he is almost a pro at the whole walking thing and really (really, really) likes being outside.  The kiddie pool (cheap, plastic, and awesome) is already full of grass clipping and crazy, makeshift toys afloat.


We have worked super hard to get something of a vegetable and herb garden started and I vow…. do you hear me?….I VOW to really put an effort into maintaining our beautiful organic veg and herbs this year.  The last few years have really been a wash <insert excuses excuses excuses>.  I am still determined to do buckets, containers, and raised beds since dirt here doesn’t exist.   Honestly, I was shoveling up some dirt on the side of the house and came up with fully formed  clay pots.  It is not good dirt.


So forgive the absence as we were really enjoying the sunshine.


Wenders


p.s. The above photo was taken at my parents West Texas farm.  My sweet baby cherry tree was in full bloom.  It was a root transplant I took from my grandmother’s cherry tree and is 3 years old.  It makes my heart sing to see it thriving.

	


	





		

		
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Girl Scouts of Awesomeness and More
	


	
	

		
What a great spring break so far!  It is always a good mix of chaos, fun, and inspiration when I head west to my old home town Merkel, Texas.  It was definitely a full agenda today.  I had a photo shoot mid-morning with one of the sweetest and most pregnant women I know!  She was actually due yesterday and I begged her to hold on until I could take her “belly” pictures.  It is a good thing she waited because even this test shot was gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous.  Jenn’s sweet girl Bailey was having a hard time warming up to the camera but she was still sweet and cuddly when I was taking some aperture test shots and getting the feel for the shoot.




 


Can you believe this lady looks this good over 40 weeks into her pregnancy!? (I promise, I didn’t look near this put together and calm!!!)  I love to capture images of women who handle life with such ease and grace.  It is so very inspiring to see inner beauty and outer beauty mix so wonderfully!  All in all a very pleasant way of spending my morning.


(Also, if you didn’t already notice, I totally just gave away the name of the latest branch of Wenderflonia’s creative endeavors.  I really wanted my photography to have it’s own separate identity.  So… look for a new shop to open soon under the name of Shabby Hippie Photography! )


 


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The warm springlike day continued to roll on with the inspiration.  I had the honor of being the guest speaker for the combined Girl Scout Troops of Merkel! I spoke about what it was like to be an artist and I hope I made a lick of sense, because I was so excited to be there and talk to such an eager and talented bunch of girls that I must have rambled on and on!  Thank you wonderful ladies for such a fun opportunity to blabber endlessly about my passion.  I loved all of your questions and input.  I wish I could have been there for hours listening to all of your excellent examples of your artistry.  Keep drawing, painting, creating, and learning!! I pray that you all stick with it and keep your creative spirit alive no matter who tells you otherwise!  If you can dream it, you can be it!


 




I have no doubt in my mind that there is a wonderful and creative future in store for all of these of these sweet girls.  If any of you ladies make it over to my blog I just wanted to let you know I really enjoyed my time with you and hope to cross paths again really soon!


 


With stars in her eyes,


Wenders